I may have some problems to overcome
Not finishing things is one.
Being on time is another.
Disorganization in all phases of my life.
But fear is a big one.
Some fears I have overcome. Like a fear of needles. I can actually get a shot or have blood drawn without passing out.
Other fears I won't overcome, but they should not be a problem in normal life.
Like a fear of bears. I went on a camping trip once in an area where black bears were active. I could not sleep and ever step I took I scanned the trees for bears. I eventually abandoned the group and went to a public camp site rather than a deep in the woods site. I did not have that fear years ago in Alaska, so I am not sure why I have it now.
Alligators. Jackie's brother Bob and his wife Anita live in Florida and see gators once in a while. I get nervous seeing them in a zoo. The gators, not Bob and Anita. Just to be clear.
Jet planes crashing into our house or losing an engine and having it hit our house. We don't get a lot of planes flying over us, but this time of the year seems to bring an uptick. FedEx, UPS, Amazon all fly into Rockford and sometimes they seem pretty low.
A Trump presidency. Enough said.
Burglars. We have an alarm system because I watched some crime shows and became convinced we needed an alarm system. I also gave up watching crime shows.I do sleep a little better.
Tornadoes. Still debating with myself about a home shelter in the garage.
Being alone. Not just for an hour or two, but a permanent loneliness.
Teaching again. I could not do it. If today's standards were applied when I was teaching I would not have lasted 2 years. I would have gone crazy with what teachers have to put up with today. It's insane. Luckily, I am too old and too ornery to ever go back into a classroom.
Success and Failure. Both? I think that explains why I write books but don't trey to get them published. What if they are terrible and get bad reviews? I would be devastated. But what if they were successful and got rave reviews? I would be devastated because I could have written so much more. So, I am the only reader of what I write. Crazy, eh?
So much for my fears.....and psychiatrists who want to take a shot at redeeming me are welcome to try.
Peace and Love
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