I hate tomorrow
Nothing against Wednesdays. Or Jan. 3. Just the idea that Julia is going back to Switzerland tomorrow.
I hate that.
Yet I am terribly proud of her for what she has done in life. Emily too. Jackie and I raised our girls with the hope they would become strong, independent, successful adults.
And they have.
I admit I cry sometimes when Julia passes through security. And sometimes when I am sitting at a computer thinking of her passing through security.
Most of you know I am pretty emotional about a lot of things.
The only year I read "Where the Red Fern Grows" to my class I had to stop in the middle of a chapter a few times, which is why I only read it once out loud.
Like I said, I am a real sob factory.
Funny, I am much better than what I used to be. I couldn't even drive when we dropped Emily off at school for the first time. And when Julia first left, in 2002, I wandered the house at night, sopping up tears and eating M & Ms I smuggled in for comfort food.
It has gotten easier. I don't use as much tissue as I used to. But I do binge eat.
When Jackie and I were young parents, I had a job offer in Price, Utah. I needed to think about it and we talked it over and decided it would be a good thing. I never considered how my parents, or her parents, would have reacted to their babies being 12 hours away.
I think they would have said, "Go. Live your life. Find yourself."
And they probably would have bought a supply of tissue too.
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