wondering

 I am wondering about a couple of things tonight

    Probably the biggest wonder has to deal with age.  Or getting old. 

    I was on my way to the store today and saw these 2 old folks pushing a cart to their car.  The man was trailing, and at first I thought he only had 1 arm, but his arm was behind his back.

    I looked at her and then at him and kept walking.

    After about 10 steps it hit me:  they were people I have known probably since we first came to Rochelle.

    I did not recognize them because they were...... old.  They had aged, and I did not recognize their ew faces.  I had seen them a few months ago and recognized them right off the bat.  But today I did not.

    This also happened to me a couple of months ago.  If. I had not heard the person speak, I would not have known who they were. And I have known that person for years.

    So, when do people become old looking?  Do we notice it in ourselves?

    I thought of taking a nightly picture of myself to see if I can pin point the exact day I became old, but I don't have the stick-to-it-tiveness that I would need to complete such a project.  Nor do I want to store a couple of thousand (he says optimistically) pictures of my face.

    I don't mean grey hair.  Or balding.  I mean looking old.  

    In a sense it scares me that I will become old looking.  It also makes me wonder if I will notice.  Will I wake up one day and look in the mirror and wonder who the hell that person is? 

    Another thing is bothering me. 

    I have. this image of a young bo stuck in my mind.  He has a triangular face, lots of freckles, brown short hair and ears that stick out.  He is always smiling.  

    I think he was a student.  In fact, I can almost hear him asking me a question.

    Why is that face haunting me today?  What made me think of him?

    Anyway, some wonders have no answers.

Peace and Love