melt down

 I had a melt down today

    I called myself every name in the book, and some that people have probably never heard before.

    Why?

    Because I am me.  

    I got new glasses about 3 weeks ago.  I asked for the sunglasses that attach to the glasses because I don't like the glasses that turn dark in the sun.  

    We drove to DeKalb 2 weeks ago, I got Jackie out of the car, realized I was still wearing my sunglasses even though we were going inside, so I tossed them into the back seat.

    They disappeared.

    We had bags of clothing to take to Hope Chest, but they are not taking donations during the alley construction.  The sunglasses were on top of one of the bags.

    That was the last I saw of them.

    I took everything out of the car.  I looked under seats.  I looked in the seat wells.

    I took all the clothes out of the bags and shook them. 

    I looked in the glove box, the console, and the place where I should have put them.

    Nowhere.

    And I lost it.

    I lose stuff  too many times.  It is frustrating, aggravating, irritating

    I know, it's a pair of sunglasses.  Replace them and move on.  But they cost money, money I would not have to spend if I was not me.

    During my rant little Beth barfed on the carpet.  I cleaned it up and sat on the couch petting her because she must have thought I was yelling at her.  Our Jackie.  But I was yelling at me.

    Whatever.

    Tomorrow I will call and order new sunglasses.  It will cost me several coffees and ice cream cones.

    Emily came over to take a look and said, "Shit happens.  Get new ones."

    I will.  

    But I am just real tired of being me.

Peace and Love

    Especially Peace